missqueenb86

It's been a while. That's an  understatement. I've been feeling conflicted about my writing lately. I've been using WattPad to post my stories and poems to but  I've written some stuff I find to be too personal. Now I just don't know what to do. Because I have family that know about my WattPad I'm worried they'll question me about what I'm writing. Why I wrote it and what it means. I'm terrible at lying and I don't want to tell them the truth about where my inspiration came from.

How do I get around this?
Does anyone else have a similar problem? Do you just tell people not to be so nosy?

 

Since I have free premium for 24 hours I thought I might make some use of it.

I did the google analytic thing but sadly it only reports current data, it doesn't go back. So I'm going to hope a bucket load of people look at my stuff in the next 24 hours.

I tried to use a journal skin but I don't have time to russle up any CSS style type background so it's staying plain.

I'm actually pretty tired as we've just gone into daylight savings in my country so my body thinks it's an hour later than what it is.

I am going to exit this journal entry. I know just when it was getting exciting.

I should share what I was doing before I came on here.
Researching the alternatives to plastic grocery shopping bags. I know. I'm the life of the party.

See you next time!

It's that time of year when everyone starts evaluating how the year has gone and making resolutions for the next year. Well, atleast that's what I do.

So here's what I need to change.

-Diet and exercise.
Why: Since starting my job in 2012 I have gone up two dress sizes. It's not because I eat junk while at work its more because I don't have the energy to exerxise every day and while at work it's often 3 hours between breaks and I get super hungry. SUPER. So when I get home and I can eat whenever I want (not when someone tells me to) I go a little crazy.

I also had a small problem where I was craving twisties (cheese flavored corn chips) every night. So I was eating a massive bag. Massive. The reason for this was because my body actually wanted iron. Why it thought it was in Twisties I don't know but after listening to my body and seeking medical advice I found the answer!

-Be more organized.
Why: This kind of goes with wanting to change my diet and exercise. If I'm more organized, know what I'm eating for my meals and when I need to exercise I'm more likely to succeed.  And I wont spend time wasting it mucking around on the internet. Bonus.

So the reason for writing this all here and not starting a blog is because I can't be bothered signing up for a new program, having to remember another user name, another password. I can just come in here, write all my bullshit and it's all done. I dont have to worry about who's reading  it, if I'm going to get comments etc. I can just be me. Raw.

So now I need to work on how I'm going to do these things. I think for the diet thing I'm going to do a meal plan but input what I intend to be eating into myfitnesspal to make sure I am being healthy and not eating crap without knowing it.  The biggest issue is knowing what I'm eating. I need to become one of those people that reads the labels on what they intend to buy in the supermarket. Not that there's anything wrong with those people.

I just really want to get this out there. It'll be a jumble of rambling but I don't feel like writing it on paper in my journal.

A few months ago I stopped using Facebook, broke up with my best-friend all thinking that these things were holding me back, making me feel anxious and stooping me from getting outside and getting back on track with my health and fitness goals.

Sadly its a few months on and I am no better off, infarct I'm probably worse off. I took up eating a bag of chips every night and eating bits of chocolate every second night.
Both things I'm sure are excellent for weight loss and healthy eating.

I still cant leave the house for fear of what's on the outside

I still am treating my body like rubbish

I know all of these things and yet I am doing nothing to change them. How can I make myself get out there and do something?

How?

I'm still feeling sad
I'm still feeling lost
I am wasting my life away doing nothing but watching tv. While it is good quality tv is this really what I Want to look back on when I'm 80 and thinking "man I'm glad I watched all that tv"

No that's not what I Want.

How
Do
I
Change?
How?

Hi to anyone that reads this!

If you read my last journal entry you will know that I went through a rough time in 2009.

I am doing well.  I finally got a new job and have been working for just over a year now.

I have decided it's time to get back into my passion which is writing. And  general craftyness. (that's totally a word).

My main reason for not doing this sooner is being scared that I'm not actually good at writing. However my pasion for writing is winning over my fear. Yay.

Hopefully you will be hearing a lot more from me now.

Thanks so much for reading.